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Holiday in Tagaytay

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Ian offered to drive up to Tagaytay last Friday and we asked a couple of our friends to go along with us. Eman and Sem (getting maried next December) were the willing companions... and it was kind of fun because we took them to Churches and pig-out places which otherwise would've been boring to us already. :p Cute choir boys at the Caleruega lobby. Inside the Chapel of Transfiguration. Where Eman is, wacky pics are sure to follow... Told ya. Sem and I at the Caleruega gardens. Sorry guys, she's taken. Taal Vista Hotel view site. Feels like the old times! Sem, sigurado ka na? May one year pa to change your mind! (Peace, Nong!) Taal Vista lobby. La lang. Pink Sisters grotto (which I later learned via my delayed supersensory recognition system IS being haunted by a Caucasian priest) Ian and I: Tourist guides plenipotentiary extraordinaire Missed you Terts! And this I wish everyone for the coming year! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Photoblog: Christmas in Baguio

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Point: Change of Ambiance Manner: Road Trip to Baguio Damage: Mucho Dinero Gain: No Tears Before Christmas Mass at The CJH Manor At the Bell tower, getting chummy with a Proverbial Dragon. You should hear him roar. Little Man Walking What I loved the Most about Baguio was... this.... and me getting to do this all I want... Token pictures of famous sites Twin Peaks Merry Christmas!

In Defense of Daydreams

I don't have a lot of vices. I don't drink alcohol, smoke, gamble or play Ragnarok. But I do have one bad habit I can't shake: Daydreaming. Aw shucks, you'd say. Daydream ent a vice. We all daydream. But sir, my daydreams are such that they are violence in itself. It is a harpoon impinged on reality, sucking the air out and leaving the real world listless. It has the power to physically disable me from functioning. It swallows me whole and brings me to places that you may not want to exist. I have always claimed that I am living a Half-Life (channeling Duncan Sheik), and the truth is, I live half of my life in the physical world and the other half in the world my mind made for myself. In the midst of everyday living, I had been queen, psychopath and prophetess. I saved the world thrice, saved lives seven by seven hundred times, and sat with Oprah to talk about my mission in Africa. I have written four books, appeared in 6 movies, documented ghosts and superstitious beli

New Phone!

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Bought a new phone yesterday. My old cp was giving out, and maybe I kind of needed to let it go as well. So, I bought this: It's a Sony Ericsson Z610i. Love it. :p

Rant and Rave

Rant: Where the freak did Filipinos get the idea that spitting in the streets was ever ok? I swear, if spit were pearls, we'd be making jewelry for the Queen of England. Rave: Buti na lang, something salvaged my pride in my country. I love that once the Angelus or the 3 o'clock prayer sounds, everybody goes to a stand still, even if you're inside the mall.

Just Because It Makes Me Smile

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This is my latest picture, taken yesterday during our unit's annual office clean-up. One good thing about my hospitalization was that I thinned out a teeny weeny bit, enough to make people notice and remark :You've slimmed down a lot!" :p Ah. There's still some small good things. :p In the pic: Seated left is Bing who is a babe who can crunch numbers and married (sorry guys) to the wackiest bald young lawyer I know. Seated right is Geo who is just a couple inches higher than a fire hydrant but quite feisty and smart alecky. You'd love to have her in your corner when there's an argument ensuing. Believe me, you'd always win. Standing left is Ian who's my best friend at work. And he's miserable company but I love him because he's the kindest creature in God's universe. :p Posted this to remind me I haven't lost everything. Ciao!

The Shimmering

The Grinch Reaper stole Christmas last year from me. Reason to make me believe that it was forever gone from me and I'll never have it back --- my absolute love of the holidays. By this time last year, I was so busy with my lists. I was in hyper mode, personalizing each gift I give. I even made a fuss about the gift wrapping. It must all be special. I was planning Christmas Noche Buena in my head. I was planning what I will do during my work's forced leave period. I loved Christmas. But now --- ah. I didn't even make a list this year. All I know is that I have this bunch of friends and I'd probably buy them something. So I ended up buying chocolates. My imagination didn't even spark. I finally knew what it meant to be just going through the motions. That is until I finally had to force myself to go inside a toy store for the kids I need to give gifts to. Give it to Children to make Christmas fun. Shopping for kids brought back that shimmering feeling -- faint but th

Absolutely Not!

Oh no, I'm not! I'm not gonna die leaving nothing but a lame last entry. How inane was that? It's been groovin'? I think I'm better off watching That 70's Show reruns. No. If I die, it will be --- fire. Hmmp! -=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=--=-=-= Darkness! You have no claim upon me --not my soul, nor heart or mind You may take me prisoner and chain me to the earth Tear me limb to limb and bring me miles underneath the soil But you will not have me --- Not Me who breathed free til her last. I will not go willingly My fight will be fire and brimstone and the fury of Haephastus Burning like the Seven Cauldrons of his heated rage Dare and touch me, Dark Knight, and turn pale listening to the sizzle of your skin. Watch me -- Burning Brightly -- And I will burn away before your finger lays upon me. You will not have me go gently. You will not have me at all. -=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= Needs a bit of work. Good thing I'm not dying yet, eh? Not tonig

Signs of Life

Hello... I'm sorry for the super-long hiatus on posts. I just emerged from a 2-week confinement in the hospital where all the doctors were baffled by my illness. So, after 90K in medical bills, I decided to check out. Whatever. I'll just wing it, nurse myself back to health, with the help of my family. Or if I die, eh di, I'll die. Merry Christmas by the way. :P I haven't got much to blog about. My brain was deep-fried in fever the last few weeks. So I'm not expecting a coherent post. My primary goal was just to show some signs of life. To those who wondered. If ever there was any. Just in case. I don't know when I'll be able to post again. It can't be everyday people will take pains to prop me up on a chair, open the laptop, and help me stay upright. Yeah, it's that bad. So. I think it's freaking lupus or something. Or leukemia where I'll become pale as a ghost and fade away from people's eyes. Or it could be major mental complex that is
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"Are you okay?" Three words that scared the hell out of me. It was the way you said it... as if you were genuinely scared I wasn't okay. I didn't know you cared. For a split second, I didn't know what to say. So I ended up answering you in jest. Sorry. It was scary. You cared. Like some crazy cartoon character, I am fumbling for some hold at the mouth of a deep chiasm that I am slowly sliding into. Don't let me find a hold.

Insanity Report

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OMG. I. Am. Bored. To. Death. And the stupid rashes haven't even cleared up yet. How many more days like this? No, don't tell me. I'll lose it. I will.

Preacher in Blue Jeans

When you think of the word preacher, an image of a grizzly old man donning a rucksack comes to mind. It rarely presents an energetic middle-aged man with a face smooth as a baby's bottom and wearing blue jeans. Goodness, I mean, that's so... normal. That's why I think Bo Sanchez is so effective in what he does : communicating God's word in an accessible, normal way. He doesn't scare you into submitting to the Faith. He explains it all to you and gives you the choice to claim your core gift and your blessings from the Lord. And he says it in that straight forward witty way that kind of amazes you in its simplicity. Sometimes, I think I want to be like him. I remember my Daddy when I watch Kerygma on TV. He's got the same vigor and that same light in his eyes when he speaks of what good God has done in our lives. I wonder now why I have always disliked joining religious groups. I mean, shouldn't I be automatically drawn to them growing up with both parents act

Hilarity

Want to hear something absolutely funny? I somehow, at age 25, contracted german measles from thin air and am quarantined at home for the next 7 days. Have you ever heard such an amusing thing? Me, stay inside a house for 7 days straight? What? I'll go terrifically insane, I assure you. I'll be cackling in crazy juice by this time Monday. You. Pray for my soul.

Vanity Googling

Just for kicks, i tried to google myself and came up with "katukayos" from as far as Chile and La España. Until finally, I cam across this byline for an article which I wrote eons ago. Huh. I wrote it, and my boss massacred it. Anyhoo, want to learn more about the Bauan Reef System (yawn... yeah, sure). Then read on. :) link to: http://www.mb.com.ph/issues/2007/07/09/TOUR2007070997402.html

Today's To-Do List

Today's an Olivia-Get-To-It Day: 1. Wake up at 5 a.m. (I woke up at 9 a.m.) 2. Get to the office early (I'm still at home, obviously blogging) 3. Write that article on that Entrepreneurial Development cooperative (I'd rather be blogging) 4. Buy anti-histamines (if they sell Fix-your-Brains, I might've bought medicines earlier) 5. Make a to-do list for your 5 trainings jammed within 3 weeks (I'm dying here) 6. See to the Social Security documents (I'd rather go to the dentist) 7. Go to the Gym (Right after I finish this Honey Cake) 8. Really Olivia, you have to move now (Maybe that apple juice is really a lethargic agent and I just need to lie down for just 3 minutes...) 9. The World is Waiting for YOU (it's fucking NOT. It goes on fine without me.) 10. FIX YOUR LIFE! (up yours.)

That Blog Thing

The thing with keeping a blog is the pressure to write something amusing or touching or relevant for your entries. Sure, there'd be people there who'd say, nope that's just you, coz we keep absolute trash in our blogs. Well, that's my point exactly. It's just me, I don't want to write trash, but somehow, most of my entries are just like that. Like today. I wanted to write something funny about a recent incident I had wherein my pants were literally falling down as I crossed the street (jinxed eye and hook be damned). But... I lost the fire of writing it because today, I don't think anybody would care. And there's also the fact that blogs demand such absolute honesty from me, and sometimes its hard to believe I really need to. And sometimes, I just don't make sense thus effectively, I should be banned from the net so I don't impose my insensibilities on your sensibilities. Like today.

H.R.H.

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Danielle Steele novels are, like, so high school-ish. I think the last Steele story I read was Fine Things which wasn't as good as The Ring. But I'll give you this: at least the storylines and plots doesn't lump into one gargantuan mess inside my head. Unlike stories by Johanna Lindsey & Judith McNaught where they seem perfectly happy to follow the same formula over and over and over again. The only I reason I bought this book was because the premise just happened to be one of my long-running fantasies about meeting Prince William. In HRH, a princess goes to Africa to help out in an international aid organization and works with an enigmatic plain-blooded doctor. Violence happens in the camps and the princess learns about love and life as she goes through everything. Reverse the situation and that's pretty much what my life fantasy is all about. I don't know if it's any good yet. I just bought the book on a whim in Fully Booked Cubao (not proud of the price -

Bury Your Daughter

A parent ought not to bury a daughter. Jing's sister died last night due to undetected brain tumor which led to a comatose and finally, the end of her life. She was only 21 years old. Please offer a silent prayer for Wallaine Ortañez. God bless her soul.

Intergenerational and Chronic Poverty

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My girl best friend once described me as someone who knew poverty wouldn't end in her lifetime but works for it anyway. Some days I feel that's too generous of her. Some days, I just look at it as a mantra. How can you live sated in a world where poverty is chronic and intergenerational anyway? Chronic Poverty simply means people who are born poor, live poor and die poor. Intergenerational means it has been a situation that has affected parents to offspring in a seemingly vicious pattern. If we look at mere statistics, Filipinos are a little better off than our neighboring countries in terms of numbers of the absolute poor. But once we take into consideration the proportions of the poor vs. the rich, we will see that it is extremely skewed in favor of the rich. Based on the study I'm reading (from the University of Manchester on Life-course, intergenerational and chronic poverty and the SEAsian Youth), the Philippines is better off than Vietnam, but the situation is still d

Sanctuary

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Visited our adoration chapel after mass today. Upon entering, it smelt like a hospital room and I gasped at the memory it brought crashing back. It smells like Mummy's room in the hospital. I realized that's the closest I could get to her now. Smells, pictures, places where memory holds her in place. Where I could always run back to when I desperately need her or miss her. I like the chapel. It felt like a sanctuary. My heart stops hurting when I'm inside. I can cry my guts out and it's okay. I always feel comforted afterwards. I think I need to seek out more quiet places. It gives me space to think. Maybe if I stick to the chapel, I wouldn't feel so godforsakenly lost like I do now. I keep harking on about not wanting to be lonely but maybe SOLITUDE is the best thing for me right now. I need to gather myself, before God unfurls me to my future. Whatever it holds for me, it must be important if not to people, then to Him. To Them. Whew. I'm looking forward to it

Wicked

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So much has happened before Dorothy dropped in. Aye to that. I had been circling this book since 2003, but I kept deciding not to buy it because it looks ---- well --- boring. But my God. Proves how much of an idiot I can be. I haven't exactly finished it yet, and I'm itching to finish this post and go back to it even if it's 10:30 p.m. already. Sure, it doesn't roll easily on the brain cells, but I can't belive how much it has engaged me. I think I have a new heroine in Elphaba. And it's scary because I think I have much of Glinda in me. Geez. Dunno know what I'm talking about? Go read the book then and be enlightened. Believe me, it's...yep, I'm gonna say it... It's Wicked.

Night Cab Ride

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After an exhausting week (two 2-day trainings, mad-scram preparations and whole day classes in La Salle), I went to the gym and sweated all the stress out. After which all my muscles groaned in pain and on a whim, I took a cab home. Night is beautiful. Everything seems indeterminate in moonlight. Almost everything gets that surreal quality that stands out starkly in sunlight. Even moldy old buildings become graceful with just a little lighting. And oh, the lights. They're like fireflies. Something stole over me as my silent cab driver maneouvered our way through insane traffic. I just kept my eyes pinned at the passing scenery and it came. It was ---- solace. I think. Or maybe it was --- hmmm...this is hard --- happiness? Can it be happiness? Is it possible to be happy and content even if it's only been barely a year since they've gone? But I suppose, it is possible. Knowing myself, I don't need ALL aspects of my life to be peachy to get this feeling. Sometimes, it come

Tsk, tsk...

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Amazing. I dreamt of Bast and Seb last night. Yep. Both of them. It started out with Bast appearing in my dreams like he had a right to be there. What I like about dreams is that everything is simplified and amplified. Even emotions. So in my dream, I had license to feel surprised, then excited to see him again. I saw that something stable inside of him again. Like moth to a flame, I was drawn in once more. I remembered that my Dad wanted to meet him, because I was head over heels infatuated with him when I came back from the mountains. But now, I suppose, he'll never meet my dad. In my dream, Bast and I were just talking. And he was looking at me as if he knew something was different and it somehow made me interesting. Then Seb came. I opened a door and there he was. Standing inside the room, as if waiting for me all along. First thought: Uh-oh, I'm confused. He'll see Bast and he'll get jealous and he'll think I do not care for him as much. I decided (the word is

Girl, Finally

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Book in Hand: Summer Knight by Jim Butcher Song in Mind: "They're tiny, they're toon-y, they're all a little loony..." 12 years ago, I would have never believed it. 12 years ago, my idea of personalized style included a baseball cap, rugged jeans and a plain, loose dark shirt. My wardrobe was full of black and dark blue stuff. You can never make me wear anything pink. But I think I backslided when I started loving the color violet. In college, not only my clothes were violet ---bags, ballpens, rulers --- geez, you name it, were all in the shades of this royal color as well. Until finally, I was forced to wear pink and I realized my cheeks looked more flushed -- in effect, prettier --- when I'm wearing rosy shades. To complete the transformation, a boy I liked told me I look pretty in pink. And I don't think he meant "like a pretty pink balloon" which pretty much summarizes why I wanted to stay away from the color. I'm not saying I now belong

Davao Wacky Horror Picture Show

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Jack's Ridge : Frontage An interesting detail on the mural behind me: The controversial Statue of David at the waterfront: (why controversial? because it has man's genitalia in full regalia on display, and Dabaweños being Catholics think it's .... uhm... inappropriate) (the Greeks are probably rolling over their graves right now) Davao Crocodile Park frozen animals (j/k!) Gabe, Champ (both cousins) and moi Ella's Cheesy Pic #1 (With Pangil, the man-eater crocodile) Tito Ron (whom we call Toron) posing on an accidental signage: Me and Dabaw: The National Shrine for the Sto. Niño: Ella and Gabe coming from Paradise Island. My cousins Nikki and Abigail. Ella's Cheesy Pic #2 Family Picture

Searching for a Raison'detre

Read EXTREMELY LOUD AND INCREDIBLY CLOSE by Jonathan Safran Foer. Broke my heart a year ago. Still breaks my heart now. It's about a kid whose father died during the Sept. 11 attack in NY and now he's trying to understand the msytery of the key he found in his dad's closet. His search takes him everywhere. But all in all, what he was looking for was a new raison d'etre. Touche. All he ever wished was that time can run backwards and then they will both be safe back in their beds, his dad telling him the story about NY's sixth borough the night before he died. With Daddy it would have been like this: The taxi would've ran backwards coming from the hospital. We'll carry him back inside the house. He would've stood up and cooked Christmas ham. Then the visitors would have left walking backwards. Then I would've smelled the Spam. Then ...... Then moving the right way forward again, I'll use this time to stand up when I smelled breakfast cooking. This

Dresden Files

Over the long vacation I have been spending my time soaking up the different Jim butcher series called "Dresden Files." There's a similar show in the states based on the book, but as before, I'm a bigger fan of the book. Harry Dresden is the only wizard listed in the Chicago phone book. Yes, he advertises his services but only helps out with really dire, serious cases. No, he does not make love potions either. And man, the writing is engaging! Sobra. When Harry's battling werewolves, or putting down necromancers, or dealing with the sidhe, or kicking vampires.... it rocks. You have to reads it to love it. Oh, and yeah, National Bookstore sells a version of it for P 425 - 626 / copy. I love National, but Powerbooks offers another edition that only costs P 385 each. So, sorry po. But I'm practical lang. Grab your copies now. :P
Hindi kinaya ng powers ko ang November 1. Akala ko nga lalagpas ng walang major breakdown. Hindi pala. :c Book in Hand: Song in Mind:

I Want My Yaya Back!

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Okay.... this is going to sound waaaaay immature. But Ella and I both work miles away from home and we get back to Fairview in the wee hours of the night. The next morning, we have to wake up at 4:30 and leave by 5:30 a.m. Saturdays, I teach in La Salle the whole day. Sundays, God, would you want to work your ass of after a hectic week like that? Where, in God's good earth, can we find the time and energy to: pick up dog poop, feed the dogs, tend the garden, wash clothes, iron clothes, cook, and still have some space to breathe before knocking off? I don't know. I freakin' don't know!!! I want Ate Josie back! My parents had to send her home 3 years ago because we didn't have money to pay her anymore... and they needed their medicines more. She was with us for 11 years. But now... I'm hoping we can try to get her back. I have convinced myself that I just don't want a maid, but we need it. The house needs it. It's falling apart. I have learned more about

A Bit of a Blog Slow Down

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Yes, if you've noticed my lagging posts, it's because I do have a more demanding work life than I ever had in my old unit. And so far, I'm still enjoying it. Another thing is: I'm getting so attached to the gym. Yes!!! A gym! Me, working out! Doing cardio, lugging weights around, sweating.... no, you're not hallucinating. Ganito pala if you're losing pounds: -I can wear prettier clothes. -People take a second look at you and not because you resemble Roseanne Barr. -I feel lighter, and can even run faster now. - I just feel better. From size 22, I am now down to size 18. I don't deprive myself of sweets or fats: i just take lesser portions. And I think my oral hypoglycemic medicines are also helping. I have lost 13 pounds and people I know are starting to notice. The one person I want to notice though... is still obstinately clueless. Argh. Oh well. Lemme reap the benefits. Baka he'll notice my new confidence and finally konk his head. :P

Romancing the Ordinary

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I'm trying to jog my brains so I could find new topics to talk about. My emo stuff can get boring --- I KNOW, and I could only talk about the frustrations of falling in love like... seven hundred times... until it gets stale. I need new words. I need new inspiration. So I think I'll dwell on my favorite phrase: Romancing the Ordinary. There is a book like that and it was authored by Sarah Ban Breathnach. Find the wonderful book if you can. When my Mummy gave it to me for my 20th birthday, it changed my life. It's not at all a spiritual book, but it helped me find my spirituality. I think it even helped me find myself --- and get a glimmering of who I am supposed to be. The point is simple: find magic in ordinary things. That is the KEY to a happy life. We all live our lives waiting for the wonderful and the brilliant. But that comes to us in maybe 10% out of the 100% of our lives. And that's talking in averages. And so, a lot of people end up not feeling like they are l

Keep Away!

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Oh doesn't this speak for me right now?! Give me a mallet and I'll make quick with this pesky little brat.

Davao Day 2, 3 & 4

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Absolute sorriness.... My uncle's dsl connection went haywire the last few days as if deliberately keeping me away from the net. Which is good because it flung me to other better things. Like enjoying our vacation. Samal Island was great! I wish I was able to download the pics already but I made a mistake. I took videos pala and not stills. Kainis. So I won't even be able to show you the pics. Argh. Believe me, I did this all day today: Anyway, we also went to visit the following places: 1. Crocodile Farm - much nicer than the one in Palawan, but much more expensive too. Entrance fee costs P100 for adults and P 50 for kids. 2. Paradise BEach Resort in Samal Island- from Davao, you only have to take a 12-peso ride on a boat, pay a P90 entrance fee and you are in an island paradise. :P Nice 3. Butterfly Farm - just like the one in Palawan. 4. NCC Mall, Gaisano Ilustre and opkors, SM< Davao - wala lang, can't get the mall rat culture out of my system talaga 5. Bangkerohan -