Early Birthday Greetings
For two years running now, my father greeted me quite early for my birthday. Last year, he hugged me and said happy birthday 4 days early. This year, he greeted me 8 days before my birthday. Of course, given that he's dead might have complicated things a bit. Seeing him again made my heart sommersault and I almost woke up from the seeing dream. My Daddy had the quirkiest smile. He was reaching out to me. You can say it's just in my head. That my sub-conscious is showing me things. But given what I've been through and the different feeling that pervades a true seeing dream, I'm pretty sure it was really him. Now, I just realized that the reason I'm making sure that I'm busy the day before my birthday is because I don't want time to think for myself. I don't want to remember it's my first birthday with both of my parents gone. And that I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I am not the same person I was before they died. Everything is ...